Unfortunately, I didn't sleep very well last night. This is nothing new. I never sleep well anymore. The difference today, though, is that I feel fine. Yea, I'm a little groggy, but I got 5 very unsettled hours of sleep and I feel no different than the days I (accidentally?) sleep for like 17. I consider that a victory, and I'm hoping if I can stay moving until 9 or 10 tonight, I'll be able to fall asleep at a good time and wake up with the birds--and by birds, I mean Sean can wake me up when he gets home from work.
Sleep is one thing I've never, ever been able to get control of. Just when I think I'm on a schedule, I lay awake squirming, and sometimes crying, because I'm so damn tired and can't seem to do anything about it. Maybe if I start doing better with everything else, sleep will fall into place, too. Fingers. Crossed.
Aside from unintentionally waking up at 6AM--on the dot, mind you--I woke up SO EFFING HUNGRY. I tried going back to sleep for a solid two hours and finally gave up. Now, I'm really, REALLY effing hungry! The Advocare plan I got from my cousin is very specific, though. So, I need to first enjoy my Spark. And then wait. And then I need to choke down the horrendous fiber drink (no, this cleanse is not all strawberries and mangoes). And then wait. And THEN... only then... can I eat something. Probs oatmeal with raspberries. YUM.
I'm supposed to try to limit my complex carb intake. As a reasonably unhealthy vegetarian, that is sometimes very difficult for me. If I rely on mock meats for my protein, I end up eating a lot of carbs. Most of the mock meats I eat are made of wheat gluten. However, beans are magical and are going to save the day. As usual. This leads to one of my absolute favorite things about this cleanse...
The Advocare cleanse diet is essentially based on fresh (or frozen...not canned) fruits, vegetables, and proteins...with the occasional complex carb. Most people turn to skinless chicken breast or a fish fillet for the raw protein--raw in the unprocessed sense as opposed to the uncooked sense. During the cleanse, Advocare also recommends eliminating dairy from one's diet. Advocare cleansers should also stay away from bleached white flour, sugars, corn syrup, hydrogenated oils, soda, etc. You know. All the things we all know are bad for us. So, as a vegetarian, this basically gears me toward being a raw vegan. Which is awesome. And I'm loving it.
Last night, I cooked up a big batch of Cuban-style black beans and rice. I used wild rice. Because it's seriously so delicious. This is what I will eat for lunch for the duration of the cleanse. And quite possibly for the rest of my life. Did I mention I'm famished..? Okay, not famished. But, I'm really feeling the grumbles..
So anyway.
After the cleanse, I'm planning to maintain the raw vegan diet almost exclusively. I don't want to set some crazy expectation for myself that I won't meet. I love me some pizza. Oh, and greek yogurt. No matter how many animals are suffering, how many calories are in one slice, and how high my cholesterol is already.. I just don't know if I'm ready to give it up. Yet. Someday, definitely. Because it eats me up inside to think a precious cow was tormented for my taste buds. But there's a lot that eats me up inside about my daily choices. I have to take it one step at a time, or I'll never improve with anything. Maybe I'll be ready in 9 days when this cleanse is over. We. Shall. See.
Looks like a good stopping point to me. A little heavy maybe. So... this:
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